We’re only a week into 2019 and I hope we all still have our eyes on the ball. Last Monday, December 31, I celebrated my 26th birthday, something I like to refer to as “Nae Year’s Eve.” Bringing in the new year while celebrating your birthday is a liberating and stressful situation. There is the challenge of trying to plan a celebration while just wanting to prepare yourself mentally and emotionally for the New Year.
This year I tried to keep my birthday as simple as possible. In the past I took the NYE thing too seriously. The idea of glitz and glam always seemed mandatory. Even more so because it is my birthday. Trips to Detroit, Chicago and Atlanta always seemed like fun but ended up being exhausting and expensive. This year however, I tried to reduce the stress. My plans consisted of dinner with friends at Black Rock Bar & Grille and small turn up at a local bar. Overall, I had a great time. Though some stress did accompany my night, in the end it all worked out. I was showered with a lot of love and good vibes and at the end of the day, that’s all I ever wanted. Shout out to my friends for sharing those moments and capturing them as well. Sometimes, simple is best. I officially declared my birthday a success and mentally gave myself space to genuinely reflect on 2018 and prepare for 2019.
In 2018 I relaunched this here blog. I met some influential people. I had some AMAZING times with my friends, and created new memories with my family. I felt an array of emotions and learned how to decipher them. I cried healthy cries and I made grown up decisions. I fell down gracefully and I got up stronger. I began to appreciate my growth instead of struggling through it due to the lack of patience. Most of all, I reintroduced myself to Trenae.
I named 2018 as “the year of revelation”. It was the year that I began to realize a lot more than I bargained for or expected. Toxic people had their true colors shown, my dreams became a little clearer and I realized how much more work I must put in. I learned how to accept what is and act accordingly. The greatest things I think I picked up on were vibes. In a split second, scenes and people can switch up. In the past it would ruin my mood, steal my attention and potentially take up a mass amount of time until I could “get over it”. This past year and for years to come, I immediately dismiss it and move on. I was not in tune with myself or with what I wanted. That got me off my game and I got lost in my emotions and my thoughts.
As I begin a new chapter of my life and reflect on how my time in this world has enhanced over the last year, my only thoughts are always, “How will this year be better?” “How will I be better?” I don’t know about you all but those are very hard questions to answer. Throughout each year I get wrapped up and lost in so many things that I sometimes lose focus on the moments that bring me joy. Because of that, I miss lessons, I miss blessings. The very things that will make you better.
I wrote down my list of goals for 2019 and the theme I landed on for this year is “Elevation.” For a while now there have been so many things I’ve wanted to do, try and see but they still haven’t happened. Doubt, fear, apprehensions and irresponsibility kept me from those things. I spoke things into existence but doubted them in my heart, which pretty much defeated the purpose. I harbored ill feelings and I held onto toxic people and behavior. There’s no way I could evolve into a greater version of myself if those are the things I kept as a part of my life.
I feel refreshed, affirmed and blessed entering this year. My faith is stronger and my thoughts are clearer. I am done making excuses and most definitely done worrying. What’s for me will be. 25 was great but 26 will be even better. Let’s all grab 2019 by the balls…we got this!